losing and letting go

i am in deep sh*t right now. i lost my school ID. damn. i won't be able to enter the school library without it and i really need to go there to do some research for my paper. aaarrggghh!!! of all the times to lose it, why now??? of course, the solution for this would be to replace it. but it still sucks coz it's a waste of time and money. yeah. stupid me.

i got a really sad news yesterday. one of my Korean students will be going back to her country next week and might not come back here again. it's really sad coz i'm going to miss her terribly. just writing about it makes me teary-eyed (sob!). i'm going to miss her morning greetings and hugs whenever i arrive. even though she has been my student for a short time only, i know that things will never be the same again when she's gone. this is one of the sad things about being a teacher. being left by your students. and you can't stop them from leaving coz they have to go coz your time with them is through. when i first started teaching, i told myself not to be too attached with my students so i won't feel very sad once they leave. but it's really hard not to be attached coz i see them every day. we do a lot of things together. we play, sing, dance, eat, run, wrestle, talk, laugh, and a whole lot of other things. when they cry, they run to me for comfort. when they are happy, they share their happiness with me. even though my students are still very young, i genuinely feel their love and respect for me. and i genuinely love and respect them as well. so if they have to go, i'll let them go. but i know that they will stay with me forever in my heart.

Quotable Quotes

1. "Okay, okay! I take it back. Unfuck you!!!"
2. "You say I'm a bitch like it's a bad thing?!"
3. "How many times do I have to flush before you go away?"
4. "Well this day was a total waste of make-up"
5. "Well aren't we a bloody ray of sunshine?"
6. "Don't bother me, I'm living happily ever after."
7. "Do I look like a fucking people person!"
8. "This isn't an office. It's HELL with fluorescent lighting"
9. "I started out with nothing still have most of it left"
10. "I pretend to work, they pretend to pay me"
11. "YOU!!... off my planet!!!"
12. "Therapy is expensive. Popping bubble plastic is cheap. You choose"
13. "Practice random acts of intelligence and senseless acts of self-control"
14. "Errors have been made. Others will be blamed"
15. "And your cry-baby, whiny-assed opinion would be.....?"
16. "I'm not crazy. I've been in a very bad mood for 30 years."
17. "Sarcasm is just one more service I offer."
18. "Whatever kind of look you were going for, you missed"
19. "Do they ever shut up on your planet?"
20. "I'm not your type. I'm not inflatable"
21. "Stress is when you wake up screaming and you realise you haven't gone to sleep yet"
22. "Back off!! You're standing in my aura."
23. "Don't worry. I forgot your name too."
24. "I just want revenge. Is that so wrong?"
25. "I work 45 hours a week to be this poor."
26. "Nice perfume. Must you marinate in it."
27. "Not all men are annoying. Some are dead."
28. "Wait...I'm trying to imagine you with a personality"
29. "Chaos, panic and disorder . . . my work here is done."
30. "Ambivalent? Well yes and no."
31. "You look like shit. Is that the style now?"
32. "Earth is full. Go home."
33. "Aw, did I step on your poor little bitty ego?"
34. "I'm not tense, just terribly, terribly alert."
35. "A hard-on doesn't count as personal growth."
36. "You are depriving some village of an idiot."
37. "If assholes could fly, this place would be an airport"

a forwarded email i received. enjoy.

High School Musical

i am addicted to the Disney film, High School Musical. i've seen every replay of it in Disney channel. i have the soundtrack and i listen to it over and over again. the magic of Disney worked for me coz i got hooked. me and my 3-year-old niece love to sing the songs from the film. they are nice and catchy. my personal faves are Breaking Free, Start of Something New, and What I've Been Looking For.



so if you have no idea on what this film is, tune in to Disney Channel. if you don't have Disney Channel, just google it.

moving on

it was stronger than i thought. i left because i was confused. then i decided to go back one last time only to find out that everything has changed. i guess it was never really meant to be mine in the first place. and as always, life goes on for me.

just thinking

isn't it frustrating when the person you like doesn't know that you exist? worse, that person knows you but doesn't give a damn about you.

on the other hand, somebody is frustrated also because you have no idea that he exists. worse, you know that person but you don't give a damn because you're busy looking at somebody else.

just a thought...

so tired

it's really hard to put into words what i'm feeling right now. all i know is that life sucks. but i try not to let the bad things affect the things that keep me sane like my work and studies. i really hate what's going on right now. there are times though when i wish that whatever is happening right now will last for a long time. i know it's bad to wish for something like that. but if it's for the better, then so be it. i've had enough of this thing anyway. as much as possible, i don't want to think about it. so i just focus myself on other things. it's not that i don't care. i'm just tired of this.

21 Things I Want In A Lover

Do you derive joy when someone else succeeds?
Do you not play dirty when engaged in competition?
Do you have a big intellectual capacity but know
That it alone does not equate wisdom?
Do you see everything as an illusion?
But enjoy it even though you are not of it?
Are you both masculine and feminine? politically aware?
And don't believe in capital punishment?

These are 21 things that I want in a lover
Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer

Do you derive joy from diving in and seeing that
Loving someone can actually feel like freedom? are you funny?
la self-deprecating? like adventure? and have many formed opinions?

These are 21 things that I want in a lover
Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
I figure I can describe it since I have a choice in the matter
These are 21 things I choose to choose in a lover

I'm in no hurry I could wait forever
I'm in no rush cuz I like being solo
There are no worries and certainly no pressure in the meantime
I'll live like there's no tomorrow

Are you uninhibited in bed? more than three times a week?
Up for being experimental? are you athletic?
Are you thriving in a job that helps your brother? are you not addicted?
...curious and communicative...

* a song by alanis

Top 40

songs that are perma-play in my ipod:

1. Head Over Feet - Alanis Morissette
2. If I Ain't Got You - Alicia Keys
3. Waiting in Vain - Annie Lennox
4. Pangarap - Barbie Almalbis
5. Sway - Bic Runga
6. My Favourite Game - The Cardigans
7. Runaway - The Corrs
8. Every Little Thing - Dishwalla
9. Home - Dishwalla
10. I Could Not Ask For More - Edwin McCain
11. Crazy For This Girl - Evan & Jaron
12. Beauty and Madness - Fra Lippo Lippi
13. Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
14. Kung Wala Ka - Hale
15. You First Believed - Hoku
16. The Reason - Hoobastank
17. Akap - Imago
18. I Miss You - Incubus
19. You're Beautiful - James Blunt
20. I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
21. Canon in D - Johann Pachelbel
22. Ligaya - Kitchie Nadal
23. Everything - Lifehouse
24. Stay - Lisa Loeb
25. Breakdown - Mariah Carey
26. Always Be My Baby - Mariah Carey
27. Torete - Moonstar 88
28. Ready For a Fall - PJ Olsson
29. Real - Plumb
30. Stranded - Plumb
31. 214 - Rivermaya
32. I Knew I Loved You - Savage Garden
33. Dreaming of You - Selena
34. I Could Fall In Love - Selena
35. Suntok sa Buwan - Session Road
36. When You Know - Shawn Colvin
37. Gemini - Sponge Cola
38. Jeepney - Sponge Cola
39. Sleeps With Butterflies - Tori Amos
40. Miracle - Vertical Horizon