so tired

it's really hard to put into words what i'm feeling right now. all i know is that life sucks. but i try not to let the bad things affect the things that keep me sane like my work and studies. i really hate what's going on right now. there are times though when i wish that whatever is happening right now will last for a long time. i know it's bad to wish for something like that. but if it's for the better, then so be it. i've had enough of this thing anyway. as much as possible, i don't want to think about it. so i just focus myself on other things. it's not that i don't care. i'm just tired of this.