by the balcony of our house, i sat down and wrote...

it's 12:17 am! haha. the date of my birthday. wala lang. gusto ko lang sabihin.

anyway, i'm still awake coz instead of coming home immediately from my class in UP (i went there to sign the attendance and left afterwards), i stopped by Sbucks to have a cup of cappuccino. wrong move. i really need to sleep but now i can't because of the caffeine. so here i am writing about senseless stuff again.

so what's up with me? hmm... nothing much. i still haven't started with my research (long live Queen of Procrastination!). i have to present it in class a week from now. and i can't believe that i actually don't care whether i have something to present or none. really. i would rather read my books (fiction) than do some research. just before i logged in here, i read my fave book of all time, By the River Piedra, I Sat Down & Wept. it's been a long time since i last opened that book. i did not read the entire book though. i just scanned it and read some parts that never fail to touch my heart. wow. i really love this book.

while trying to unearth By the River Piedra, i found another book which i still haven't read. it's Love in the Time of Cholera by Gabriel Garcia-Marquez. you may have seen this book from the film, Serendipity. this book is the one that Jonathan (John Cusack) must find in order to retrieve Sara's (Kate Beckinsale) phone number. he finally got the book when his fiancee gave it to him as a wedding gift. watching that scene always makes me teary-eyed. haha. anyway, i've read a lot of good reviews about that book. it's about a man's second chance to win back his love. he waited half a century to declare his love. woah. that's a looooong wait. but i guess if you really, really love someone, you would wait no matter how long.

another book that is buried under my bed is The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger. i also haven't read this book yet. it's about a woman who meets the love of her life when she was 6 and the guy was 36. but when they got married, the man was only 8 years older than the woman. hmmm... now that's interesting. i just wonder when i will have the time to read this book.

before i log off, i want to leave you with memorable lines from my all-time fave book. enjoy.

In real life, love has to be possible. Even if it is not returned right away, love can only survive when the hope exists that you will be able to win over the person you desire. Anything else is fantasy.

When we look for love courageously, it reveals itself, and we wind up attracting even more love. If one person really wants us, everyone does. But if we're alone, we become even more alone. Life is strange.

No, I'm not mistaken. I know you don't love me. But I'm going to fight for your love. There are some things in life that are worth fighting for to the end. You are worth it.

But love is much like a dam: if you allow a tiny crack to form through which only a trickle of water can pass, that trickle will quickly bring down the whole structure, and soon no one will be able to control the force of the current. For when those walls come down, then love takes over, and it no longer matters what is possible or impossible; it doesn't even matter whether we can keep the loved ones at our side. To love is to lose control.

A thousand times I wanted to take his hand, and a thousand times I stopped myself. I was still confused - I wanted to tell him I loved him, but I didn't know how to begin.