blog entries from another blog

i read the blog i created last year and i found some things worth posting here. here are some of them. happy reading!

TITLE: ON BOOKS AND FRAPPUCCINO (April 23, 2005)

it is a sunny Saturday afternoon. a good day for fun and relaxation. yet i am locked up in my room trying to make sense of all the statistical data in my notes. the numbers made my head swirl so i decided to know the history of philosophy. i haven't even finished reading page 1 and i'm already dozing on my desk. i have been trying to study but it's not working. my mind must have been tired from all the studying i've done in the last few days. i have been studying like crazy since Thursday and it's only the start of classes. instead of just lounging on my bed last Thursday, I went to the library and borrowed some books that will only gather dust on my desk. and yesterday, i went to the library again to photocopy some reading materials (courtesy of Jhenel's classmate last sem). i have no idea on when was the last time i was like this, but it really feels weird. i'm like the Queen of Procrastination. could it be that i've totally changed into a better person? or in this case, a better student?

of course, studying is not the only thing that occupies me these days. yesterday, i met up with Jhenel and Aie coz they have to return some notes that they borrowed from me. we went to the lib first coz Jhenel has to meet her former classmate. then we hanged out there for a while. Jhenel and I were talking about the subjects we're planning to take up next sem while Aie was sleeping beside me, when this guy started to give us dirty looks. he must have been annoyed by our chatting so we decided to go some place where we could talk (well, it's the library, and silence should be observed). since Aie was so sleepy, we decided to go to Starbucks in Katips so that she could drink coffee. it's been a while since i last went there. nothing's changed. so we just hanged out there and reminisced about our college years.

college life was really colorful. thanks to all those people we met and things that happened. we learned a lot of things from college. not only psychological concepts and buoyancy (what is this anyway? could Jhenel, Tin, and Aie explain it to me? hehe..), but also life lessons. i learned mostly a lot from the experiences i had. we all had our share of ups and downs. but i am happy coz in the end, every thing turned out well. whatever kind of life we have right now, be it good or bad, is the effect of what we did in the past. we should not blame other people for the way things turned out in our life because we are in control of our own lives. we are the ones who made the decisions for our lives. and we should just thank all those people who touched our lives and made us who we are right now.

i finally figured out the statistical data in my notes. so all i have to do is try to keep myself awake while reading all the materials i have for my psycho-philo class.

TITLE: MY AMAZING RACE (May 12, 2005)

i got myself a new job. a teacher for toddlers. i haven't even vacationed that long and i'll be working again. i'll start as soon as my classes are over. i was actually not looking for a job coz i want to spend the rest of the summer sleeping, eating, watching videos and having fun. then i thought of studying full-time next semester. but everything happened so fast. before i knew it, i have a job. this signifies a new chapter in my life. a whole new one. and it's really nice coz my job is the kind of job that i want. imagine, i'll get paid while playing with children.. hehe.. of course, i'll be teaching them the things they need to learn which will also be really fun. i'm really looking forward to this thing. but i have to finish first all the requirements in school. yesterday, our report in psycho-philo was a success. after weeks of philosophizing, discussing how to present the report, writing the hand-outs.. it's finally over. and it was a good report. i didn't expect that we'll be able to present it smoothly. the good part is that i was able to somehow overcome my fear of public speaking (i have no idea when i developed this fear). so at least my classmates heard my voice. and of course, i'm starting to feel more comfortable speaking in front of my classmates (aka, people who are older than me). haha..

i came home early yesterday to catch Amazing Race 7 on TV. Uchenna and Joyce won! really cool. (i actually knew they won even before i watched it coz i can't wait to find out who won so i checked the AR website.. haha..) Rob and Amber lost coz they had a hard time looking for the cigar shop. even though i like Rob and Amber to win (coz of their competitive spirit), it was also okay for them to lose. that would make them a million dollars richer again! and it would seem like it was arranged for them to win. but i'm just glad that Ron and Kelly lost. like what i said, i don't like Kelly. it's just sad that they ended their relationship after the race. well, Ron deserves someone better. but who am i to say who's better for someone? Uchenna and Joyce won! and i'll be looking forward for the next season of the Amazing Race.

so i'll be starting my own Amazing Race next week as i start with my new job. i know that i'll be experiencing a lot of things there. all i have to do is to give my best in every thing that i do and of course, have fun.

TITLE: MAN-HATER?! (May 15, 2005)

this can't wait any longer... i just received a message in my friendster's inbox asking me if i am a MAN-HATER. whoa... i have been asked this question a lot of times already. i don't owe any one an answer or explanation on whether i am a man-hater or not. but i'm tired of receiving this question so i'll answer it once and for all. I AM NOT A MAN-HATER.

yes, it's true. first, let me tell you why people think i am a man-hater. based from what people (particularly guys) tell me, they said that i am suplada, masungit, and mataray... especially with guys. okay, i admit that i have been like that before, but not to every guy. and i've been like that to guys who are pain in the a**. why did i say that they are pain in the a**? coz they act like they are god's gift to women (even though they're not). and i don't waste my time with guys like that. so i ignore them. others think that i am suplada, masungit, & mataray coz of the way i talk to them. mahilig kasi akong mangbara. guys often misunderstand me whenever i do that. i do that coz for me, it's my way of making them remember me (haha... yeah right). seriously, i do that coz it's one of my ways to show that i like a person. i do that to every one, even to my close friends. but my friends know that i don't really mean it. that i am just joking around. i ignore a person if i don't like him/her (as in totally ignore). people also think that i am suplada when i don't greet/acknowledge some one first. it's either i didn't know how to approach that person, i didn't recognize him/her (coz of my some what poor vision), or that i had some thing in my mind. come on, do i have to make the first move every time?

another thing which makes people think that i am a man hater is because of the fact that i don't want to have (or my lack thereof) a boyfriend. what is wrong with being single? i love my freedom very much that i don't want to be tied down to one guy only. there are more important things in life for me. lovelife is at the bottom of my list.

i think this is enough explanation as to why i am not a man hater. i was never a man-hater. and never will be...

TITLE: BLAH, BLAH, BLAH (June 13, 2005)

i'm back... i haven't visited my blog for a long time. i was busy preparing stuff in Big Tree. i was also sick for a few days coz of the crazy enrollment in UP. classes in UP started last June 7 to my big surprise. i thought that classes will start on June 9. so i attended class totally unprepared and not in the mood. but last saturday, i attended class quite prepared and excited. classes in Big Tree will start this Tuesday. of course, i can't wait. i miss my students and i'm glad to see some of them again.

i'm a little sleepy right now but i don't wanna sleep yet. i just want to release all these thoughts i have in mind. so if you started to get confused on what the heck i am talking about here, it's because my thoughts are not clear right now.

anyway, i have been missing my college life these past few days. every time it rains, i remember the experiences i had during college. the things i did like shopping nonstop (i was a Kamiseta addict back then); walking along Katipunan Ave.; hanging out with friends at the mall; eating puto, peachy-peachy, lumpia, pansit, and sopas at MAE; crushing on cute guys... i haven't done these things since i graduated from college. when i had my first job, the only things i bought with my salary were books and things i needed. it's really true that you'll learn the value of money when you're the one who earned it. unlike when i was in college, i didn't think twice on spending my allowance and charging my credit card on unnecessary stuff. now, i think a lot of times (not only twice) before spending my money. as for walking along Katipunan Avenue, i have done that last Saturday when i met up with my friends and bought school supplies in NBS. i haven't been to the mall with my friends for a long time now. we only hang out in UP or any place near UP where we could meet. i really miss strolling at the mall and just having fun. the last time i went to Miriam was last April. i hope i could go back there and eat something delicious at MAE. and i haven't had any crushes for a long time. except for celebrity crushes, i haven't seen any cute guys for a loooooooooooooooooooooooong time. i wonder where have they been? or maybe my standard for cuteness is really high. haha.. when i was working in Makati before, the number of cute guys that i saw were less than 20 (or maybe less than 10). i didn't see a lot of cute guys in the 10 months that i was working in Makati. oh well. what do i care about cute guys anyway? they're a bunch of freaks. guess i'm really turning into a man-hater. haha.. so what?! but i'm going to make an exception for Champ, the lead singer of the band, Hale. he has a really good voice. he's kinda cute. but i really like his voice and the band's songs. they're my favorite pinoy band as of the moment. before them it was Sponge Cola. i still like Sponge Cola and Yael though. hehe.. i also like the remake of MYMP's "Tell Me Where It Hurts."

i miss riding the MRT. the last time i rode the MRT was on the last day of my work in Makati.

i need to buy a new pair of rubber shoes/sneakers. the ones i have are my good 'ol Benetton and Kamiseta sneakers which are now showing signs of old age. i also need slippers that can be very useful in the rain. the slippers that i used last rainy season didn't last until December.

i miss playing Sims University. ever since Meralco billed us P10,000+ for our electricity use, dad banned kuya and i from playing pc games. but he didn't ban Rich from playing Play Station. lucky kid.

Bayo plaigarized artworks from a Japanese girl. how could they do that? i hope nobody plaigarizes what i have been writing here. haha.. dream on. as if the things i write are interesting enough to be plaigarized.

i need to have my eyebrows thread. the last time i did that was before my birthday. i also haven't visited the facial salon for more than a year. i also have to eat lunch because every time Jhenel sees me, she always tells me that i'm getting thin. and we see each other weekly. do i have an eating disorder not otherwise specified? haha.. of course not. i'm not concerned with my weight. i don't even know what my weight is anymore. but what can i do? i don't feel hungry during lunch time. i just read that eating tomatoes can help make your cheeks rosy. i love eating tomatoes. but my cheeks are not that rosy. a little only. haha..

it's already 3:33 am and i'm still awake...

TITLE: WAITING IN VAIN (September 23, 2005) *i finally got an ipod a few weeks after i wrote this

i woke up at the wrong side of the bed this morning. literally and figuratively. this day really sucked. good thing my cranky mood didn't affect my job this morning coz my students and i had a great time running around and decorating their toy drums. as soon as they left, my sucky day continued. aargghhh... i must be pms-ing coz it's almost the end of the month. so here i am watching rob and amber get married part 2 (part 1 was shown last week). duh! after a few months, they'll be divorced. haha... seriously, i don't believe in marriage anymore. but who knows, maybe if i meet some one really, really special, i might consider getting married some day. but sadly, i haven't met some one i could truly love. some one who is worth my love and time. one of the reasons why i remain single. maybe i have met him already, only that i don't know his name (read the previous blog entry). i wonder when will i see him again. only God knows. uh, why am i talking about marriage and stuff? eek...

before i slept last night, my brother and i talked about the latest stuffs from mac. of course, included in our conversation was the ipod nano. i really like this thing even if i don't have it yet. and my desire to have it is growing each day. i could actually buy it now using my credit card. only that i'll be spending more coz of the interest. but if i'll buy it on december (using cash), i'll save money. and i won't have to worry about bills. but i want to have it now! aaarrgghh... my brother always tells me that patience is a virtue.

so all i have to do is wait...