things to come in 2008....

the year 2007 will end in less than 24 hours. i know that this has been said a gazillion times already - time flies really fast. most of the events in our lives seemed to happen just yesterday. a lot of things happened in our lives. they were all good and bad. but since we can not turn back time, let us just look forward to new things that will come our way in 2008. i am actually excited for 2008. a lot of exciting events will happen next year. here are some of them:

- THE CONCERT OF MAROON 5.
this will be on March 5 at the Araneta. i like Adam Levine (particularly his piercing gaze). i really hope i could watch even if it's on a weekday. i am not exactly their biggest fan (though i like them). i am just trying to make up for the concerts i wasn't able to watch this year (Switchfoot, Fall Out Boy, Vertical Horizon - which my brother was able to watch... gggrrr...).

- THE CONCERT OF INCUBUS.
i wasn't able to watch their first concert here back in 2004. so i really have to make sure that i will be able to see their concert. it will be on March 9, Rich's birthday. it's okay if i won't be able to watch Maroon 5's concert as long as i will be able to watch Incubus.

- THE NEW SEASON OF FORMULA ONE/F1 RACE.
2007 brought us a very exciting race season even with the absence of Michael Schumacher. so full of drama and action (Alonso and Hamilton's rivalry, Alonso and Massa's "little fight" after the race, spy scandals, accidents, etc.). of course, i still cheered for Team Ferrari. even if Kimi is the most boring talker, he made up for it by bagging the driver's championship trophy. and i am really glad that Alonso did not win. haha! but next year's race season seems to be more exciting. Alonso is back with Renault. Kimi and Hamilton are still with Ferrari and McLaren, respectively. so it will be a 3-way battle for the constructors' trophy. every F1 fan will surely look forward to another 3-way battle for the driver's trophy. there are also new drivers to look forward to. and, the first-ever night race in Singapore. ain't that exciting already?

- 2008 BEIJING OLYMPICS.
though i don't watch all the sports played in the olympics, i am hoping that the Philippines will finally get its first-ever gold medal.

- THE END OF THE WGA (WRITERS GUILD OF AMERICA) STRIKE
i don't think that these writers want a very long strike. they are also humans who need money to support themselves. i just hope that they would finally reach an agreement with the AMPTP. if this happens, new episodes of my favorite shows (Grey's Anatomy, Ugly Betty, Heroes, Pushing Daisies, Gossip Girl) will resume.

- MY NEW LAPTOP
i will have this very, very soon.....

- MY NEW PLANNERS
this may sound crazy for most people, but i have 3 planners for next year. Belle de Jour, Starbucks, and one that i got from a party. this is actually normal to me since i am somewhat an OC person. also back in college, i used 2-3 planners. so the quantity is nothing new. just the planners and the things that i will write there.

- THE UNEXPECTED
i am hoping for unexpected things to happen coz they make life more exciting.

these are just some of the things i am looking forward to. happy new year!

Bubbly

I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tingles in a silly place

And it starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying dry and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

And it starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goesI always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I gonna say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm

And they start in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

And it starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows'cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you go

Wherever you go
I always know
'Cause you make me smile
Even just for a while

* a song by Colbie Caillat

don't you just feel bubbly and light when you hear this song? :)

a wish come true

'tis the season to be jolly. i am glad that i'm not going to be a grinch this season coz i am happy. for the past few months, i've been down and depressed. i resorted to different kinds of therapy, some of which resorted to disastrous results. okay. just to be clear. i was not clinically depressed. i was just sad. so i robbed my own bank account and shopped till i dropped. i even closed one of my bank accounts because of my "retail therapy." the therapy didn't work, of course. it only made me more sad at the sight of my bank statements. so i imposed a Mall Ban to myself. somehow, it worked. i still have a surviving bank account and enough money to buy gifts for other people. i already bought enough gifts to myself. haha. of course, the Mall Ban is lifted for now because it's Christmas season. i know that it's going to be a big test for me once i go back to the mall. but i believe in myself. i know that i won't be impulsive buying again.

in my last entry, i wished for one perfect day of happiness. i did that coz i was so sad that time. the wish didn't come true. but it's okay. the important thing for me right now is that i'm okay and still surviving my boring life. haha. i learned that it's okay to be super sad. it actually made me realize and appreciate the simple things that make me happy which i usually ignore.

i guess the emotional turmoil i had in the last 3 months was the effect of not trusting myself that i could still be happy and okay in spite of all the the troubles i had. at least, my wish of not losing my faith came true. and that is something to be happy about.

wish

my one wish right now is to have even just one day of perfect happiness. if that happens, i won't mind being sad for the rest of my life because at least i experienced how it feels like to be really happy.

i'm still holding on. i still believe that my life would turn out fine.

if there's one thing in my life right now that i'm working hard not to let go of, it's faith.

i don't want to be a fallen angel...

Closer

I see you, walking everyday, with a smile beneath frown,
But I won't look away, yeah, what does it mean?
What's there to see?
If I look closer, closer,
Closer, closer, closer, closer, closer, closer,
Where are you going?
And what are you thinking at all?
Your eyes show nothing more, than a dazed oblivion,
What does it mean?
What will I see?
When I look closer, closer, closer, closer, closer,
Closer, closer, closer, ah, yeah,
You don't see me, watching everyday, my smile could warm your frown,
And I'd never look away never look away,
There's more to me
There's more to me,
Than what you see, when you look closer, closer, closer,
Closer, closer, closer, closer, closer, closer, closer, closer,
Closer, ah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Closer, closer, closer, no, no, no,
(Fade Out)

* a song by The Corrs

goodbye, harry...

i am in an internet shop right now. the blogger in this PC that i am using is in Korean. it's good that i know what to click or else i would be totally lost. well, i just feel like writing now. a lot of things happened since the last time i wrote. the best thing, of course, was the release of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. i read it from 9am until 9pm. so for 12 hours straight, i read HP with only 2 bathroom breaks. i even forgot to eat lunch. i just had a cup of hot choco. but it's okay for it was really worth it. i shed lots of tears like i always do every time i read HP. this series is really one of the best series i've ever read. i'll definitely miss Harry.

Harry Potter countdown

these past few days, i've been re-reading the Harry Potter series. i am now reading the Goblet of Fire. hopefully i would finish all the books before the movie and the last book come out. i really can't wait for book 7. right now, it's the only thing that excites me (aside from the movie, of course). Harry Potter is definitely one of the best books ever written because the magic never leaves you even if you read it lots of times. i still laugh at the funny parts and cry when Sirius "disappeared." i still get excited on what would happen next even if i already know it. i really love Harry Potter! 23 more days until book 7...........

my simple life

i really wanted to update this thing a few weeks back, but i was busy reading books and watching Grey's Anatomy on dvd. it has been a long time since i've read a book or watch a very good show. okay, nothing much has been happening in my life. i just busy myself with the summer class in school. the class is every morning from 9am to 12pm. after that, i eat lunch, prepare materials for the next day and for the upcoming school year. when the clock strikes 3pm, i prepare myself to leave. by 330pm, i'm already out of school. i usually arrive home 20 minutes after. then, i spend my time watching dvd's and reading books. my life may seem boring, but i really enjoy it. it's relaxing and simple. my life has been really stressful for the past year. i poured most of my energy on work and studies. my life revolved around those two. i really enjoyed doing both. during my short vacation, i realized that i shouldn't overwork myself. there are other things in life and work is just a part of it. so now that i have lots of time in my hands, i try to do things that i love and just enjoy myself.

i'm feeling so happy!

after more than 2 months, i'm baaacck!!! i didn't go anywhere. i was just busy with the usual stuff. and stupid me, i forgot my blogger username and password so i wasn't able to access my blog for a long time. haha.

there are a lot of things that i want to say. i just don't know where to start. all i know is that I AM VERY HAPPY RIGHT NOW. yes, i can't believe that i'm saying this, but i am. so here are the top 5 reasons why i am happy (in no particular order):

- i was able to finish my practicum in one sem. even before i enrolled, i was already dreading it. i don't know why i cried over it. i guess i was just scared that i might not be able to do well and finish it on time. but i did. and i'm so proud of myself. i was able to finish it while working. even though i had a killer schedule (9am-12pm = work; 1230-430pm = practicum; 5-6pm = tutorial; 6-7pm = break, prepare materials for work the next day; 7-8pm = tutorial), i still did great. and again, i can't believe i'm saying this, but i enjoyed my practicum. even though there were a lot of things to do, i enjoyed it because of my students. now i know that i made a right decision in taking up SPED because i have the skill and heart in teaching children with special needs. and that is something to be happy about.

- another school year has ended. of course, it's sad because i won't be seeing some of my students anymore. but i am happy because they learned from me. so that means i am doing my job well.

- the little family feud with my cousin is over. at last. i really miss talking and hanging out with her. she's one of the few people who could understand and tolerate my weirdness (and vice versa). we grew up together and she has witnessed all my bratty ways but still love me despite of that. FYI: i am the resident brat in our clan. bwahaha!!

- i learned a new language: sign language! yup, i took up a sign language class together with my friends last January until February. we passed the evaluation so we can now do beginner's sign language. we're planning to enroll in the intermediate level this summer. of course, i am still very interested in learning French (for i plan to live and die in France. haha!).

- i was finally able to say goodbye to that someone who has inspired and made me happy during the time when i needed it the most. that person suddenly disappeared from my life without saying goodbye. i was left alone with a crying heart. that person was never mine so there's nothing for me to hold on to except for memories. then one ordinary day, our paths crossed again. we exchanged smiles and a few words. after that, we said goodbye. so now my heart is free again.

of course, there are still other things that make me happy. simple things like waking up in the morning with no worries, seeing my loved ones, happy meals from mcdo, and a whole lot more. i am just really thankful for all these.

Chasing Cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

* a song by Snow Patrol