so tired

it's really hard to put into words what i'm feeling right now. all i know is that life sucks. but i try not to let the bad things affect the things that keep me sane like my work and studies. i really hate what's going on right now. there are times though when i wish that whatever is happening right now will last for a long time. i know it's bad to wish for something like that. but if it's for the better, then so be it. i've had enough of this thing anyway. as much as possible, i don't want to think about it. so i just focus myself on other things. it's not that i don't care. i'm just tired of this.

21 Things I Want In A Lover

Do you derive joy when someone else succeeds?
Do you not play dirty when engaged in competition?
Do you have a big intellectual capacity but know
That it alone does not equate wisdom?
Do you see everything as an illusion?
But enjoy it even though you are not of it?
Are you both masculine and feminine? politically aware?
And don't believe in capital punishment?

These are 21 things that I want in a lover
Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer

Do you derive joy from diving in and seeing that
Loving someone can actually feel like freedom? are you funny?
la self-deprecating? like adventure? and have many formed opinions?

These are 21 things that I want in a lover
Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
I figure I can describe it since I have a choice in the matter
These are 21 things I choose to choose in a lover

I'm in no hurry I could wait forever
I'm in no rush cuz I like being solo
There are no worries and certainly no pressure in the meantime
I'll live like there's no tomorrow

Are you uninhibited in bed? more than three times a week?
Up for being experimental? are you athletic?
Are you thriving in a job that helps your brother? are you not addicted?
...curious and communicative...

* a song by alanis

Top 40

songs that are perma-play in my ipod:

1. Head Over Feet - Alanis Morissette
2. If I Ain't Got You - Alicia Keys
3. Waiting in Vain - Annie Lennox
4. Pangarap - Barbie Almalbis
5. Sway - Bic Runga
6. My Favourite Game - The Cardigans
7. Runaway - The Corrs
8. Every Little Thing - Dishwalla
9. Home - Dishwalla
10. I Could Not Ask For More - Edwin McCain
11. Crazy For This Girl - Evan & Jaron
12. Beauty and Madness - Fra Lippo Lippi
13. Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
14. Kung Wala Ka - Hale
15. You First Believed - Hoku
16. The Reason - Hoobastank
17. Akap - Imago
18. I Miss You - Incubus
19. You're Beautiful - James Blunt
20. I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
21. Canon in D - Johann Pachelbel
22. Ligaya - Kitchie Nadal
23. Everything - Lifehouse
24. Stay - Lisa Loeb
25. Breakdown - Mariah Carey
26. Always Be My Baby - Mariah Carey
27. Torete - Moonstar 88
28. Ready For a Fall - PJ Olsson
29. Real - Plumb
30. Stranded - Plumb
31. 214 - Rivermaya
32. I Knew I Loved You - Savage Garden
33. Dreaming of You - Selena
34. I Could Fall In Love - Selena
35. Suntok sa Buwan - Session Road
36. When You Know - Shawn Colvin
37. Gemini - Sponge Cola
38. Jeepney - Sponge Cola
39. Sleeps With Butterflies - Tori Amos
40. Miracle - Vertical Horizon